I had to go through an emergency c section due to complications. It was a tough labour, I struggled-- the pain of strong contractions was excruciating that I've been given 3 different pain killers in separate times to block the pain. In the end, although I was very hesitant, after more than 24 hours of labour (altogether my labour took 33 hours) and some complications, the doctors have finally convinced me to have an emergency c section. By that time, I was frustrated, tired, miserable and most of all frightful of the risks involved with a c section not just to me but also to my baby. Ofcourse, I didn't feel any pain during the surgery but I certainly felt the tugging, it was as if I was a frog being dissected and cut open! At that moment I didn't even want to start thinking about my recovery and how will my weak little body cope. All these worries flooded my thoughts whilst the surgery was taking place. Suddenly, I heard a little cry! She's here! My child is finally born..
As soon as she was handed to my other half, it was as if my world stopped and my life flashed right in front me. All my worries regarding my c section disappeared, our little family is now complete and nothing else mattered to me but her being born safely.
Me and my other half were and still are so overwhelmed with love towards our child. It might sound
creepy but even now, 3 and a half months later, I'm still swooning over her and often I'd watch her sleep for hours until her next feed-- how mad is that?!
On the other hand, my hubby who usually sounds so manly now often talks funny and makes baby noises around little Mia.
It really is a joy to watch my hubby turn into an amazing dad that he is.
Who would have thought that a guy like him, whose never washed dishes in his life, did not only look after a new born baby but also looked after me whilst recovering from my c section.
I was in physical pain during recovery but knowing that my hubby's there made the process a lot easier. I didn't think that it was possible to love him more but after all these years, I love him more now, than I've ever loved him before and I love him more and more each day (*sigh, im turning into a cheese bag lol)
Becoming a mum is hard work but im sure majority of mums out there would agree with me that once you have a child you will do everything to make sure your child's well-- sleepless nights, swapping girly shopping with nursery furniture shopping, it doesn't matter if I've eaten or not as long as my little one is fed then that's fine, putting baby first before my career and since she's only a baby there's still more sacrifices to come once she older. All these things a mother will do and more for her child-- this I now understand after becoming a mum myself.
Until then, happy holidays everyone!